changes are in the air.

and they are plentiful indeed. not so much that you can tell here, on the internet, but if you knew me six months ago and also now, you would know the differences.

i've never been the kind of person who expressed themselves well, and i don't think that will ever change.

the point of this entry is that things for me have changed, for the better, and i guess i wanted everything i do in my life to reflect that.

hence this new picture.

and thought it time i posted it as well.

"10 Reasons Why "Gay Marriage is Wrong"

1) Being gay is not natural. And real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning, tattoos, piercings and silicone breasts.

2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay. In the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behaviour. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract. Lamps are next.

4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all. Hence why women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed. And we can't let the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage be destroyed.

6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. So therefore, gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our population isn't out of control, our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children. Since, of course, straight parents only raise straight child​ren.

8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America. (Did I miss the lesson where Jesus says He hates gays?)

9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. Which is exactly why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.


Re-post this if you believe love makes a marriage.

I am a human for human rights. What's so wrong with wanting equal rights for everyone?

got this from a friend on deviantArt, and thought i would do it here, since i just did another kind on my own dA.

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own account, paste this as a note. Then, put x's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun.

(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
( ) Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
(x) Airplane
Total: 8

(x) The Princess Bride
( ) Anchorman
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
(x) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 18

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 28

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil 1
(x) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
(x) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 38

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
(x) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
(x) Robots
Total so far: 48

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
(x) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
( ) KING KONG
Total so far: 56

(x) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total so far: 66

(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 73

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
(x) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
(x) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
( ) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
(x) The Grudge
(x) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 85 (officially have no life... my foot...)

(x) Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Slevin
(x) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Bourne Identity
( ) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
(x) Predator II
(x) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total so far: 94

(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Bosses Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
( ) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 100

( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
(x) Calendar Girls
(x) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
(x) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 111

(x) X-MEN
(x) X-2
(x) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
(x) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
(x) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
Total so far: 126

(x) Swimfan
(x) Miracle on 34th street
( ) Old School
(x) The Notebook
(x) K-Pax
(x) Krippendorf's Tribe
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
( ) Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old Virgin
Total so far: 133

(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
( ) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
( ) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total so far: 137

(x) Baseketball
(x) Hostel
(x ) Waiting for Guffman
(x) House of 1000 Corpses
( ) Devils Rejects
(x) Elf
(x ) Highlander
( ) Mothman Prophecies
(x) American History X
( ) Three
Total so Far: 144 (12 times 12!)

( ) The Jacket
(x) Kung Fu Hustle
( ) Shaolin Soccer
( ) Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
( x) Monty Python and the (Quest for the) Holy Grail
(x) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard
Total so far: 149

( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
(x) Hulk
(x) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) 28 days later
( ) Orgazmo
(x ) Phantasm
(x) Waterworld
Total so far: 156

(x) Kill Bill vol 1
(x) Kill Bill vol 2
(x) Mortal Kombat
( ) Wolf Creek
( x) Kingdom of Heaven
(x) the Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
(x) Army of Darkness
Total so far: 162

(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
(x ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
(x ) Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total so far: 170

(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolutions
(x) Animatrix
(x) Evil Dead
(x) Evil Dead 2 [How can you have seen Army of Darkness without seeing these first? Geeze.]
(x) Team America: World Police
(x) Red Dragon
(x) Silence of the Lambs
(x) Hannibal
Total: 180

wow, i just went in a big circle. and i'm so very proud of my lack of lifeness for it.

the issue with a man in my life - what man? the one i thought was it has barely around, and when he is, it's all about sex. like he only wants carnal sins and no emotional satisfaction. i cannot deal with that.

so i'm putting a lot of space between us, because it's just so fucking hard to deal with a man who wants me for a booty call and nothing more.

damnit, and my Mum warned me about this.

other than that, i tried donating plasma today.

my Metformin makes it so i can't. and my Mum warned me about this too, but she didn't say why. next time i talk to that woman, i'm going to tell if she thinks something won't work out, she needs to tell me WHY, then i won't doubt her so much.

so, i'm going to go back to trying to write this Neverland fiction. it's coming along nicely, although i have had some difficulties keeping the Captain in character.

all right, so i've moved, good for me.

getting the place to where i want it isn't hard either. although i rather like doing said work when no one else is here, since then, somehow, i feel it is actually my home. with someone in the house, it doesn't feel completely mine...

not that i don't like my Mum's boyfriend, far from it. it has nothing to do with him, actually. it has to do with me.

anywho! i'm working through reading the unabridged Peter Pan, the authorised sequel Peter Pan in Scarlet, and the novelization of the film Hook to write a story that combines all these elements, as well as the more recent live action film, into a story that is so very far from anything i've written. i'm hoping it comes all right.

The BBC believes most people will have read only 6 of the 100 books here. How do your reading habits stack up?

Instructions: Copy this, if you'd like. Look at the list and put an 'x' after those you have read. Tag other book nerds.

1 Pride and Prejudice -
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien - X
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte -
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling - X
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee - X
6 The Bible - X
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte -
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell - X
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman -
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens -
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott - X
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy –
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller -
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare - (working on it.)
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier -
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien - X
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk - (planning on it.)
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger -
19 The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger -
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot -
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell -
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald -
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens -
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy -
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams - (planning on it.)
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky -
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck -
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll - X
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame -
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy -
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens - X
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis - X
34 Emma - Jane Austen -
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen -
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis - X
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini -
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres -
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden - X
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne x
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell - x
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown - X
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez -
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving -
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins -
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery - C
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy -
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood -
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding - X
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan - (planning on it.)
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel -
52 Dune - Frank Herbert -
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons -
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen - X
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth -
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon -
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens -
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley -
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime - Mark Haddon -
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez - (planning on it.)
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck - X
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov - (planning on it.)
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt -
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold -
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas-
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac -
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy -
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding -
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie –
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville -
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens -
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker - X
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett - X
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson -
75 Ulysses - James Joyce -
76 The Inferno – Dante - X
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome -
78 Germinal - Emile Zola -
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray -
80 Possession - AS Byatt –
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens - X
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell -
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker -
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro -
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert -
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry -
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White - X
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom - (planning on it.)
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle -
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton -
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad -
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery -
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks -
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams -
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole -
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute -
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas -
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare - x
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Ronald Dahl - X
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo - (planning on it.) 

my friend in Hull has passed me some really good recipes in the last few months, and recently i offered to pass along my recipe for ratatouille.

i got interested in the vegetable stew after seeing the film of the same name, and found that it was a simple thing to make. for the last six months, i have made it for my Gran and i, trying to make enough to last us for a week or so. other than last month, because i used large eggplants, it has lasted as long as expected. since my Gran and i are the only ones who like it doesn't deter my endeavour, and it gives her a nice serving of vegetables regularly.

so, here's the recipe i use. i don't make it with many seasonings, none at all in fact, because my Gran and i enjoy the flavours of the vegetables, since they all seem to work well together and the way i make it, you taste them all separately as much as you do melded together. be sure, if possible, to watch the size of the vegetables. that's the most important part.

this should make enough for five people, individual serving size of 2/3 of a cup.

you need:
- eight tomatoes, each about two inches in diameter and weighing about 1/4 a pound.
- four zucchini, medium sized and straight as possible, don't worry about marks on them, and have them be no longer than half a foot.
- four yellow squash, straight as possible and as close to the sizes of the zucchini as possible.
- Japanese eggplant, as close to the sizes of the zucchini and yellow squash as possible. this is because these don't get a big around as normal eggplant, and therefore they cook in tandem with the other ingredients.
- half a cup of vegetable oil
- 8 to 10 oz of tomato sauce, in the can is just fine.
- seasonings to taste, although they are not a necessity.

start by putting the tomato sauce in the bottom of the pot. it's best to use a stew pot that can hold at least two gallons and make sure it has a lid to it.

cut the zucchini, yellow squash, and eggplant down the middle, in half. then cut the halves in half the same way. cut the width, making half inch quarter slices. put to the side.

then cut the tomatoes in to fair sized pieces, however you please. this ingredient becomes the main base, and the most you will see of it is the skin once the stew is finished.

put the tomatoes into the pot, followed by the other vegetables. pour the half a cup of vegetable oil over everything.

set the stove top to medium high and cover. check every five to ten minutes, stirring every-so-often. you should soon see the tomatoes liquefy and begin to coat the rest of the vegetables. you should soon be able to smell everything, and the eggplant tends to smell like oysters. that's normal. once everything is coated in tomato juice, turn down to low heat, cover, and leave it. check every half hour or so, stirring each time, and let simmer for the next two to three hours, or until it looks satisfactory to your taste.

eat right then, or let cool a bit before refrigerating. it should last at least a week.

when reheating, do not add any liquid or cover, just be careful how many minutes you set it for. don't set it for more than two minutes at a time, however, so that it doesn't explode and make a mess of the microwave.


hope everyone enjoys, and please let me know if you like it, if you try it.

i'm not racist.

i mean, yeah, i sometimes wish people would learn English too instead of relying on the rest of us to be understanding, especially when i've met people (from more than one nationality, although Mexicans are almost everywhere where i am) who have been here for over five years and still barely understand how to speak English, because we allow them to retain their first language and if need be, have someone willingly translate for them. but there are programs, and that sort of thing only flies so long. but that's not what's really bothering me, just an example of the little sort of racism i have, that everyone else basically has in their own way.

last night, someone came in with one of my Aunt's friends, just waltz (more like slithered) in like it was perfectly normal. went to use the bathroom, and instead, went into my room (it's by the bathroom, down this little hallway) and into my Aunt's room. now, nothing is missing from her room, but my mobile phone (just put money on it, had all my numbers, and schedule on it), my iPod (a birthday present that took almost a year to get), and my meds (which because of my insurance i can't get more of until the end of this month).

now, my meds were taking, i bet, because they were being kept in a cool, dark place in a broken old purse i had from Hot Topic that had this cool metal snap closure, was black, and had piano keys around the bottom of one side. and the phone may have been almost three years old, but it was my favourite phone, and i was taking such good care of it because i don't like a lot of the new models that are available, plus it flips open by pressing a button. and it had all my numbers, which include some that shouldn't get out, although i can't say why. the iPod is a given. it may have been a refurbished one and 80GB, but all the same.

and they both would have fit in the bag with the meds.

what really, really pisses me off though is that i wake up, check online, and find out that my mobile has been used. now, one thing i can help the police with when i call is that they called 911 (not very smart there) and that if they are using it, then the police could GPS it and might find the other things.

but my Aunt asked that i wait for her friend first. so if by 6pm, he's not here or hasn't called, his name is being said when i do call this in.

i'm just so fucking tired of being stolen from by people brought into this house and supposedly trusted by others living here. first it was my sister, now my Aunt. sorry to say, but my first instincts are rarely wrong, and they have now been proven absolutely correct. maybe now people will start listening to me what i talk. but i doubt it. after almost 23 years, no one has, like it's going to suddenly start now...

all right, well, the first thing i want to say is that having a tooth abscess is horrid. i cannot stand the pain, and i can't itch one side of nose because of the swelling and possible pus issue.

away from descriptive things i would otherwise go into, since i cannot seem to stop someitmes, i have decided that when i go to SakuraCon next year i want to cosplay.

now the question is what can i cosplay as?

i'm a large girl, so there are so many simple characters that i can't do. but i wanna do something people will take pictures of.

any ideas?

as a child, i was allowed to learn the facts of life, for a woman, by watching a show called "The Golden Girl" beside my grandmother and mother. when i had a question about what they were talking about, my elders were always honest. there were things they wouldn't explain, like the sexual humour, but i eventually learned that as well.

all in all, i'm sad to see the second one of the four fine ladies who entertained and taught me leave us.

Bea Arthur will be missed in my household, that's for sure.

(i also enjoyed Maude, but didn't see that until my teenage years thanks to TV Land.)